"I told you I know my limits. Let me decide what I can handle."
Cristina (Grey's Anatomy)
Saturday, 27 February 2010
Today's song...
Hear You Me- Jimmy Eat world
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-OQH0jXNViA
Makes me think of....someone changing your life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-OQH0jXNViA
Makes me think of....someone changing your life
What are you willing to give?
It used to seem simple; the morality of it all. If someone needs help and you can help them, then you do it. But you get older and things get more complicated, the more you learn about the world the less it makes sense. You have more baggage and damages to bring to everything and so does everyone else involved. Suddenly there are more layers to everything. Suddenly, the help you think you're giving can actually just make everything worse. Sometimes what they need is for you to let them go and save themselves. Before they take everything and you're the one that needs saving. Because if that happens will those same people be there to pick up your pieces like you did for them?
But then the danger is that they might just realise that they can do it on their own and they dont need you. If they dont need you around will they want you? It might not be worth the risk.
But then the danger is that they might just realise that they can do it on their own and they dont need you. If they dont need you around will they want you? It might not be worth the risk.
Monday, 22 February 2010
Broken hearted in Nero
Its not as if I was stupid enough to think we'd be together forever, but i still wasnt ready for it at all. I thought that there would be more signs, I though i would have time to prepare and disconnect.
He took me to Nero. Somehow that makes it worse, not only did I get dumped in public but I had to drink Nero coffee whilst it was happening. Also due to the service being so slow I had to wait around for it to happen. Maybe I should have marched up to the counter and said "Excuse me, I know you're busy but I'm waiting to get my heart broken over here".
What can you say to someone that has fallen out of love with you? Its not his fault, he hasnt done anything wrong. Especially when i dont blame him, the state I'm in who could bring themselves to love me anyway? Not someone that needs to fix me. I'm broken and though he'd never admit it, he wanted someone whole.
I need someone to love me including all my damages; not just in spite of them.
He took me to Nero. Somehow that makes it worse, not only did I get dumped in public but I had to drink Nero coffee whilst it was happening. Also due to the service being so slow I had to wait around for it to happen. Maybe I should have marched up to the counter and said "Excuse me, I know you're busy but I'm waiting to get my heart broken over here".
What can you say to someone that has fallen out of love with you? Its not his fault, he hasnt done anything wrong. Especially when i dont blame him, the state I'm in who could bring themselves to love me anyway? Not someone that needs to fix me. I'm broken and though he'd never admit it, he wanted someone whole.
I need someone to love me including all my damages; not just in spite of them.
People Help the People (Cherry Ghost)
I think i've realised something about why its important to open up to people. Its not just because its important to you, its because its important to them. When someone cares about you they need to feel that they're not helpless, that they can have some impact on your life. I used to think it was kinder to the other person not to offload my drama on to them, i didnt realise that by doing that i could hurt them and make them feel unnecessary. People need to feel needed.
So if i cant let people in to help myself, maybe i can do it to help the people that care about me. Because when someone has the misfortune to care about me, I should try to look after myself for them. Its the least they deserve.
Maybe one day I'll want to do it for me.
So if i cant let people in to help myself, maybe i can do it to help the people that care about me. Because when someone has the misfortune to care about me, I should try to look after myself for them. Its the least they deserve.
Maybe one day I'll want to do it for me.
Time will change your heart (Blindside)
Sometimes I think that relationships really just come down to adjusting your expectations to fit what the other person is capable of, but at the same time balancing this with not compromising on what you need. If you cant find the balance...then one of you will lose yourself. And if you do lose yourself in love, what will you have left when it all falls apart?
Monday, 15 February 2010
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